therapy in the making » excuse the meltdown

Mar

excuse the meltdown

Yes… that was a meltdown… A Monday meltdown in fact; the worst kind. I assumed it was going to be a bad week this one but I didn’t expect it to be this bad. Way too much work has transformed me to a panicked, snapping, stressed, freak show.

I’ve got some sort of a break out thing happening on my face since Monday and today I started to lose my voice which generally is not a good thing. However, tomorrow I’m supposed to be doing a big presentation so losing my voice is a particularly bad thing. It is possibly one of the worse things that could happen as you kinda need your voice to do a presentation unless you are Stephen Hawking.

So I spent the day being quiet and trying to focus on all the things that were supposed to be already finished while I knew my face suggested that I was far from calm and focused. I tried very hard not to worry my colleagues but I’m sure deep down they were worried I would jump off a cliff if there was one within walking distance. I know they were worried because my scissors disappeared from my desk and when I went to borrow someone else’s scissors they looked like they were calculating the fastest escape route out of the office while looking at me straight in the eye.

I’m joking, none of this happened. I mean I have been in panic mode and stressed and in turn I panicked my colleagues but they didn’t really hide my scissors. They have actually tried to help me in any way that they can. I’m lucky to work in such a nice environment. It is the reason I endure all the hard work; these guys make it all worth it.

Written by Colin Brooks on 14.03.07 at 11:46 pm.

8 Responses to “excuse the meltdown”

Hugh said:

breathe in, hold, aaaaaaaaaaand relax - doesn’t that really piss you off when someone says that

have a shufty Mr Brooks
http://www.twu.edu/o-sl/counseling/SelfHelp001.html

i’m off to Uni today - to learn how to ~~stab~~ insert IV cannulas into babies
Commented on March 15th, 2007 at 7:55 am
Colin Brooks said:

you scare me sometimes, you know that, right?

thanks for the link though.
Commented on March 15th, 2007 at 10:19 pm
Hugh said:

scare you?
why?
Commented on March 15th, 2007 at 10:37 pm
Colin Brooks said:

~~stabbing~~ injecting stuff into babies is a little creepy!
Commented on March 15th, 2007 at 10:48 pm
Hugh said:

unfortunately, thats what i have to do for a living
i wont mention my work again.

it was not my intention to make anyone uneasy
Commented on March 15th, 2007 at 10:52 pm
Colin Brooks said:

i was only joking Hugh. being tired of course means my jokes are not of good quality can be easily misinterpreted leading to misunderstandings… you didn’t make me uneasy. hope you had a good day!
Commented on March 15th, 2007 at 10:54 pm
Hugh said:

oh good, i though i’d upset someone - i always though i was quite amiable, albeit with the ability to put both feet in it

sat on the beach this afternoon, getting the sun, met someone i worked with about 7 years ago, and then had a nice coffee in Red Roaster

How’s your work going, thought that anti stress list would be a bit useful for you
I’m now off to bed, before getting up early in the morning.
Commented on March 15th, 2007 at 11:06 pm
Colin Brooks said:

i have found that not giving a shit any more has very good results. come what may and all that jazz. If I don’t finish everything it’s not the end of the world and my colleagues should be able to recognise that I’ve done everything I could. Of course posting this comment now is not considered work…so I’d better get back to it.
Commented on March 16th, 2007 at 10:13 am