Goodbye, I will say today. Goodbye warm sweet summer breeze. I will force myself to live carefree for another few days but I’m not strong enough. There is a new year ahead of me, waiting to be lived. Today the new year begins. September starts things over not January.

Autumn is here, yes. It is depressing, yes. But depressing can be good sometimes. Makes you appreciate some things more. It makes me glad to wish myself a happy new year. I wanted to avoid the repetition and live a different Autumn with a different winter and spring following it. I wanted 2004-2005 to be unique and it was. Dear Autumn, thank you.

I will wake up tomorrow with a smile of confidence. It is my anniversary. My first anniversary of doing things my way. Standing on my own two feet and smiling while I do so. 366 days ago I was handing over my heart to the only person that could give me a chance to stand and he did. Thank you. Do you remember me shaking and forgetting my English as I spoke to you? Do you remember my nervous smile? I wasn’t confident then, I was scared shitless. You saw I could do this, you probably saw it in my eyes. You trusted me, thank you.

I want to say I owe you but the word isn’t strong enough.

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Written by Colin Brooks on 01.09.05 at 10:41 am.