After breaking up with my last boyfriend two years ago (almost to the day) I was so put off with having a relationship with anyone that I consciously decided to not meet anyone for a while. I decided to just hang out with my friends and enjoy life without having anyone else to think about.

I have this problem which I only recently started to realise. I think about other people too much. I try very hard to make sure they are happy and that they know how much they mean to me. I am there whenever they need me and I am always putting them above me. Perhaps I do this because I have insecurities (I’ve never seen a therapist) but after that guy broke up with me I really needed to be on my own and take care and enjoy myself. It wasn’t until last January that I realised that something was missing. I am a person who likes to share. I want to be able to share things with friends but there are a lot of things that one can’t share with anyone else but a partner. So 7 months ago I decided that as part of my new years resolution I would keep my eyes open and while not looking for someone as such I wouldn’t avoid meeting someone.

As the months passed I started to be a little more active about it and I eventually started seeing a guy back in March. This didn’t go on for very long because even though we liked each other we had nothing in common and I always felt very awkward around him. We would have nothing to talk about and because he was ALWAYS busy we never had enough time to meet. So after a month, I ended it.

Last weekend I met someone. A great someone. We met online which isn’t the best of starts but he is amazing. He can make me laugh, he can speak properly and not use “txt spk” all the time and we are very much alike but not in a boring way. Plus he’s very cute which always helps. Needless to say we clicked incredibly fast.

We have been exchanging incredibly long hilarious emails since Sunday and he happened to be in Brighton on Thursday so we met up. Let’s just say he is making me feel very good about myself, he seems to be a really nice guy and even though he doesn’t live in Brighton (which I’m not very happy about), he lives close enough. So, I am excited, more excited than I’ve been about anything in more than a year.

Have you ever clicked with anyone so quickly?

PS: He’s also a great kisser, heehee!

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Written by Colin Brooks on 28.07.07 at 4:35 pm.