Yesterday evening I was meant to meet up with my friend Monica for a quick drink. But you know how I am… We met up around 6pm and didn’t stop drinking until the bar closed. Luckily the bar closed early (11:00 pm) so I managed to be home at a decent hour and in time to get enough sleep to wake up this morning.

During our time there Dave and his boyfriend joined us as well as a boy who I’ve had a crush on for a very long time! I never did anything about it because he had a boyfriend himself and I would never do anything with anyone who has a partner. So I kept it off my mind. He has always been a tease, as in, he always said he wanted to do things to me and teased me but I wasn’t really sure if he meant the things he said.

Last night he told us he broke up with his boyfriend a while ago and then kept saying things about me and throwing hints that he fancies me. I do not react very well to that. In fact I lose it and start spazzing. I managed to control myself but did not respond. I kept my mouth shut. I could have said something really stupid or embarrassing. My lips can’t be trusted in situations like this.

Now, do I go on and start something with him when he’s only recently broken up? Do I stay away for even longer? We both know we fancy each other. Do I get into this when I know there’s a good chance he’ll move to London in a month? I am a boy and I have needs though. Gosh, I can never make up my mind.

Having said that, I must say that I have, kind of, already made up my mind. I want to pursue this. I have let a lot of opportunities like this go and if I keep this up I will end up feeling miserable and hating myself. So why not? Maybe something really good will come out of this. Please do tell me what you think.

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Written by Colin Brooks on 22.08.06 at 11:05 am.