things i don’t want to write about
I’ve been quiet this week because I didn’t want to write another depressing post. I don’t want to talk about my stress levels or how I have been losing sleep again. I think I have gone beyond stress and worrying. I have looped back to being totally happy and carefree while subconsciously my brain is going “DOOMED. You. Are. DOOMED.”. I cannot explain the insomnia in any other way.
I do not want to write about how I started crying while on the bus this morning for no apparent reason.
I do not want to write about how I wanted to hug the bus driver lady just for being sweet and smiling back at me when I got on that bus.
I do not want to write about how getting drenched in the rain this morning felt wonderful and cathartic.
I do not want to write about how I haven’t been out in weeks and right now all I want to do is get drunk (and I don’t normally like getting drunk).
I hate that I am like this. I need to find my old self and write something cheerful again.
I just opened a bottle of wine. Here goes!
…cheers!
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daniel said:aw! i hope the funk passes soon…in the meantime, cheers?
Commented on April 24th, 2008 at 7:00 pm
Amie said:Big hugs! I really hope you get to feeling back to your old self.
P.S. The Aimlesslee now following you on Twitter (or Twitter Twatter as I so fondly think of it) is me.
Commented on April 24th, 2008 at 8:03 pm
yoshi said:Ah, hope things get better soon.
Commented on April 24th, 2008 at 8:24 pm
diz said:Awww.
Big hugs. Go get blitzed. Wine is the best remedy sometimes.
Commented on April 24th, 2008 at 9:44 pm
Divalicious said:Awww, hugs.
I hope you feel better soon.
Commented on April 24th, 2008 at 10:19 pm
Melanie said:Have you gone to the doctor? There are so many nice happy pills available these days.
Hang in there!
Commented on April 24th, 2008 at 11:10 pm
Colin Brooks said:daniel :: thanks! cheers mate!
Amie :: I hope so too. Tons of hugs. I hope your nose is doing okay.
yoshi :: Thanks mr!
diz :: Lots of hugs back! Wine seems to have helped!
Divalicious :: Thank you sweetie! *hugs*
Colin Brooks said:Melanie :: No I haven’t. I wouldn’t want to take pills anyway. I hardly take pills when I’m ill. It’s all caused from stress and worries about uni. If it was for a reason other than that I would think about seeing a doctor though.
Kentucky Girl said:heeeeeee! Got your email. Glad you enjoyed your wine. LUB EWE.
Commented on April 25th, 2008 at 8:31 am
Meesh said:I’m a little late in repsonding, but I hope you can find your way back to the good things you thrive for! As for pills, as much as I LOATHE them, I’d seriously be lost without my Prozac.
Try to keep your chin up, especially after all that wine….j/k.
Commented on April 28th, 2008 at 4:23 pm
Meesh said:OMG…sorry, it’s me again. I haven’t posted in awhile and I just saw my avatar…wow…hope that cheers you up.
Commented on April 28th, 2008 at 4:24 pm
Colin Brooks said:Kentucky Girl :: Wine was good, the emails are a little blurry. ub ewe too!
Meesh :: Don’t worry about the lateness. I have a lot of catching up to do with the blogs I read too. It takes me forever to get through my feeds. I really don’t want to resort to pills but it may come to it if I don’t finish my degree soon. And your avatar is funny and scary at the same time. It does cheer me up though.