Walking
Lately my new found friend Kurt and I have been walking and talking a lot. It seems that every weekend we go and walk about the suburbs for a few hours talking about, well, everything. I think Kurt and his partner are going to break up soon. Kurt’s partner Graham has been offered a job on the otherside of the country and if he takes it Kurt isn’t willing to relocate.
Kurt and I get along well. Sometimes I feel some sexual tension in the air, but I know that nothing is going to come of it while he has a boyfriend, I’m just not that type. Neither, thankfully, is he. So if he and his boyfriend break up I might be interested in pursuing something more, however I kinda feel guilty about even having these types of thoughts while he still has a boyfriend.
We have a great deal in common, even a smaller age gap than my X and I, but there are still some issues that might be uncomfortable for me. For one, I’m a poor student working part time, where as he’s internationally travelled, owns a car, has a house and works for the government. It’s not so much that I feel inferior (which I kinda do), it’s more that I feel akward. I’m not the kind of person to allow someone to pay for me, and I don’t want him to be unable to enjoy things simply because I can’t afford it.
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Well, it sounds complicated and situations like this require a lot of attention on how you approach them. You see even if he breaks up with the other person he may not be looking for a relationship straight away, firstly because the break up will be caused by the distance between them and not something that happened between them that destroyed what they have.
It’s not bad to think about it. Knowing you, I can say you are not the person who would do anything without thinking and that means it’s okay to just think of the “what if” and the “maybe”. It’s only immoral when you take it to the next level and do something about it.
You should try not to think about these kind of differences that you have between you. Relationships are more than that and if it is right there will be understanding on both sides. Also, what have I told you about putting yourself down? That’s right, DON’T!
Try not to think about it before anything happens between them. You are putting yourself in a very difficult and uncomfortable situation.
Commented on July 29th, 2007 at 12:57 pm